lest u fall asleep

during worship

i've fallen asleep at my instru again.
this happens more n more
i think i've conditioned myself to worship b4 sleep
so i've conditioned myself to feel sleepy while guitaring 

i shld not do this anymore

dreamyglee thus full of conflicting messages

songs from glee 

DREAM 
There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.


DEFYING GRAVITY 

Something has changed within me 
Something is not the same 
I'm through with playing by the rules 
Of someone else's game 
Too late for second-guessing 
Too late to go back to sleep 
It's time to trust my instincts 
Close my eyes: and leap! 

It's time to try 
Defying gravity 
I think I'll try 
Defying gravity 
Kiss me goodbye 
I am defying gravity 
And you wont bring me down! 

I'm through accepting limits 
''cause someone says they're so 
Some things I cannot change 
But till I try, I'll never know! 
Too long I've been afraid of 
Losing love I guess I've lost 
Well, if that's love 
It comes at much too high a cost! 

I'd sooner buy 
Defying gravity 
Kiss me goodbye 
I'm defying gravity 
I think I'll try 
Defying gravity 
And you wont bring me down! 

I'd sooner buy 
Defying gravity 
Kiss me goodbye 
I'm defying gravity 
I think I'll try 
Defying gravity 
And you won't bring me down! 
bring me down! 
ohh ohhh ohhhh!

all i can say is that at the wine tasting, which was awesome free and great, thanks to jessica, we had no wine left untasted and yeah, the fear. 

well i guess
its okay to be afraid since nothing stays right

sleepy not, scratched again

so i had a long week
i dont really wanna say what happened because its not really my story to tell
but i had a 30hr sleep over the weekend
and my foot was on a pillow.

u know, crisis, trauma, gets u to places. that makes u miss the core of it all.

and i thought having the ability to sleep the night was epic
and now i know, its silly becasue its like NOW that i cant sleep

ok blame andrew lim for playing so intensely at iNK bar tonite
its 3 am and i need some soothing music and all i can think of is then intense i duno jaz music okay
theremin was great,mindblowing and okay, adreneline pumpin hawt
artsylum was awesome. xinyi rocks!

well well well
how can i dream if i cant sleep?
now thats some food for thought.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yn83hrqLM80

It's a big girl world now
Full of big girl things
And everyday i wish i was small
I've been counting on nothing
But he keeps giving me his word
And i'm tired of hearing myself speak
Do you get weary? do you ever get weak?
How do you dream when you can't fall asleep?
I've been wondering what you're thinking
And if you like my dress tonight
Would you still say you love me under this ordinary moonlight?
I'm so afraid of what you'd say
I'd like to know if you'd be open to starting over from scratch
I'd like to know if you'd be open to giving me a second chance
I used to think i was special
And only i have proved me wrong
I thought i could change the world with a song
But i have ended up in india
With no map to guide me home
Strangest place i think i've ever been
And all this time i thought that we were friends
My stubborn will is learning to bend
I'd like to know if you'd be open to starting over from scratch
I'd like to know if you'd be open to giving me a second chance
It's a big girl world now
Full of big girl things
And everyday i wish i was small

o i used to call this blog scratch.
u can get rid of all the things
force me to
break the chains
but u cant heal the pain
nor can u stop this rain
u have missed ur train.
i'm sure
because i hate rhymes.

meredith dreams and desires tequila...

"at some point maybe we accept that the dream has become a nightmare"

"Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most, are those who don't know what they want. "

tequila+lime

thats my grey's anatomy... 

i've woken up, dreaming. i know what i want and i know what i dont want to want. 

sleep, my child...

http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=OwlCityVEVO#p/u/1/psuRGfAaju4

Owl City
Fireflies lyrics

Songwriters: Young, Adam

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep

'Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems

'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance

A fox trot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball that's just hanging by a thread

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell

But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seems

I could sleep forever these days...

Two ravens in the old oak tree and

One for you and one for me and

Bluebells in the late December

I see signs now all the time



The last time we slept together

There was something that was not there

You never wanted to alarm me

But I�m the one that�s drowning now



I could sleep forever these days

Because in my dreams I see you again

But this time fleshed out fuller faced

In your confirmation dress



It was so like you to visit me

To let me know you were ok

It was so like you to visit me

You always worried about someone else



At your funeral I was so upset

So upset so upset

In your life you were larger than this

Statue-statuesque



I see signs now all the time

That you�re not dead, you're sleeping

I believe in anything

That brings you back home to me



I see signs now all the time

That you�re not dead, you're sleeping

I believe in anything

That brings you back home to me.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7R6SM70EwnQ&NR=1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cLdp2OSFEys



one of the lines
blair n chuck share:
 
blair : i love you
chuck: well thats too bad (but he actually loves her)
 
http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/3530822107858736916/
 
some interpretation of the song... the thing about language, is that a lot of it happens in imagination.
 
u all, have some refreshing sleep. May it NOT be of escapism

Rules 101

1. R-E-S-P-E-C-T as far as possible
2. L-O-V-E always
3. PRACTICE what you preach
4. OVERWORKING NOT ALLOWED
5. Have fun at your own expense

this will be fine tuned as we go along
and rule 6
I am the diva here. I always have the last say, but usually I believe in democracy.
there are other sleeping revolutions that you can join.