lest u fall asleep

during worship

i've fallen asleep at my instru again.
this happens more n more
i think i've conditioned myself to worship b4 sleep
so i've conditioned myself to feel sleepy while guitaring 

i shld not do this anymore

dreamyglee thus full of conflicting messages

songs from glee 

DREAM 
There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.


DEFYING GRAVITY 

Something has changed within me 
Something is not the same 
I'm through with playing by the rules 
Of someone else's game 
Too late for second-guessing 
Too late to go back to sleep 
It's time to trust my instincts 
Close my eyes: and leap! 

It's time to try 
Defying gravity 
I think I'll try 
Defying gravity 
Kiss me goodbye 
I am defying gravity 
And you wont bring me down! 

I'm through accepting limits 
''cause someone says they're so 
Some things I cannot change 
But till I try, I'll never know! 
Too long I've been afraid of 
Losing love I guess I've lost 
Well, if that's love 
It comes at much too high a cost! 

I'd sooner buy 
Defying gravity 
Kiss me goodbye 
I'm defying gravity 
I think I'll try 
Defying gravity 
And you wont bring me down! 

I'd sooner buy 
Defying gravity 
Kiss me goodbye 
I'm defying gravity 
I think I'll try 
Defying gravity 
And you won't bring me down! 
bring me down! 
ohh ohhh ohhhh!

all i can say is that at the wine tasting, which was awesome free and great, thanks to jessica, we had no wine left untasted and yeah, the fear. 

well i guess
its okay to be afraid since nothing stays right

sleepy not, scratched again

so i had a long week
i dont really wanna say what happened because its not really my story to tell
but i had a 30hr sleep over the weekend
and my foot was on a pillow.

u know, crisis, trauma, gets u to places. that makes u miss the core of it all.

and i thought having the ability to sleep the night was epic
and now i know, its silly becasue its like NOW that i cant sleep

ok blame andrew lim for playing so intensely at iNK bar tonite
its 3 am and i need some soothing music and all i can think of is then intense i duno jaz music okay
theremin was great,mindblowing and okay, adreneline pumpin hawt
artsylum was awesome. xinyi rocks!

well well well
how can i dream if i cant sleep?
now thats some food for thought.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yn83hrqLM80

It's a big girl world now
Full of big girl things
And everyday i wish i was small
I've been counting on nothing
But he keeps giving me his word
And i'm tired of hearing myself speak
Do you get weary? do you ever get weak?
How do you dream when you can't fall asleep?
I've been wondering what you're thinking
And if you like my dress tonight
Would you still say you love me under this ordinary moonlight?
I'm so afraid of what you'd say
I'd like to know if you'd be open to starting over from scratch
I'd like to know if you'd be open to giving me a second chance
I used to think i was special
And only i have proved me wrong
I thought i could change the world with a song
But i have ended up in india
With no map to guide me home
Strangest place i think i've ever been
And all this time i thought that we were friends
My stubborn will is learning to bend
I'd like to know if you'd be open to starting over from scratch
I'd like to know if you'd be open to giving me a second chance
It's a big girl world now
Full of big girl things
And everyday i wish i was small

o i used to call this blog scratch.
u can get rid of all the things
force me to
break the chains
but u cant heal the pain
nor can u stop this rain
u have missed ur train.
i'm sure
because i hate rhymes.

meredith dreams and desires tequila...

"at some point maybe we accept that the dream has become a nightmare"

"Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most, are those who don't know what they want. "

tequila+lime

thats my grey's anatomy... 

i've woken up, dreaming. i know what i want and i know what i dont want to want.